回复：【授权转载】Deffective Logic (病娇 Kaito x 读者）

来更啦啦啦啦！！！话说我用了一个晚上就译了这么长的一章~ 厉害吧？你个头，一边翻译一边跟着大哥一起疯的说，三更半夜在那边模仿文中大哥病娇的台词念。好了，更之前大家先看两个视频，給个画面联想。
【MMD】Kaito 好痛苦 Hurts Like Hell （1）

这个你们应该看过……结局比较像这个…

【MMD】Kaito 好痛苦（二）Hurts Like Hell

我傻了，竟然up两次类似的视频（是太喜欢这首歌吗？！）。
不过满身血的比较像是现在的？喂有关联吗？！
因为看到网上很多歌词的翻译都是错的，所以这里放了歌词。
How can I say this without breaking
我要如何在没有崩溃的情况下将这些话说出口
How can I say this without taking over
我要如何在还没接受的情形下将这些话说出口
How can I put it down into words
我要如何组织这些言词
When it's almost too much for my soul alone
当只有我的灵魂快承受不住时
I loved and I loved and I lost you
我爱你我爱你然后我失去了你
I loved and I loved and I lost you
我爱你我爱你然后我失去了你
I loved and I loved and I lost you
我爱你我爱你然后我失去了你
And it hurts like hell
好痛苦啊
Yeah it hurts like hell
是啊痛苦得要死了啊
I don't want them to know the secrets
我不要他们知道这些秘密
I don't want them to know the way I loved you
我不要他们知道我有多深爱你
I don't think they'd understand it, no
我不认为他们会理解，不会的
I don't think they would accept me, no
我不认为他们会接受我，不会的
I loved and I loved and I lost you
我爱你我爱你然后我失去了你
I loved and I loved and I lost you
我爱你我爱你然后我失去了你
I loved and I loved and I lost you
我爱你我爱你然后我失去了你
And it hurts like hell
好痛苦啊
Yeah it hurts like hell
是啊痛苦得要死了啊
Dreams fight with machines
梦想与机械斗争
Inside my head like adversaries
在我的脑海里像那些敌人一样
Come wrestle me free
过来打倒我放我自由吧
Clean from the war
远离那个战争
Your heart fits like a key
你的心就像一把合适的钥匙
Into the lock on the wall
插入墙上的锁孔
I turn it, I turn it
我把它旋开，我把它旋开
But I can't escape
可是我逃不出去
I turn it over, I turn it over
我把它转过去，我把它转过去
I loved and I loved and I lost you
我爱你我爱你然后我失去了你
I loved and I loved and I lost you
我爱你我爱你然后我失去了你
I loved and I loved and I lost you
我爱你我爱你然后我失去了你
And it hurts like hell
好痛苦啊
*下一楼开始更抱歉*

Chapter 14: Finally alone together...
It was late in the evening and you had not too long just gotten in from work. You were exhausted from all the excitement, especially after the massacre when the police were involved in whatever the hell had happened.
Certainly, your sister and your parents came over as well, and like you, the police too had questioned them about the obvious gory scenes in your home. You told them everything that happened and that it was centered around a particular defective machine, and based on their expressions and how they were taking it, it was obvious that the officials were exactly buying the story.


A robot going on a rampage because of jealously? A ROBOT? Sure to them, robots don’t posses humane qualities, such as emotions, so with that in mind, you pretty much sound bat shit crazy. Anyway, the company and the group involved in Vocaloid production were contacted and your reports were filed for the millionth time, only this time, it was filed by the police.


Chapter 14：终于单独在一起了…
此刻已是深夜，你刚从工作那边回来不久。你被所有过激的事情搞到精疲力尽，尤其是在那场大屠杀后，警方介入调查任何已经发生的鬼事。
当然，你的妹妹与父母也过来见你，和你一样，警方也向他们询问关于你家里那显目的血腥场面。你已经告诉他们所发生的一切，皆是围绕在一个特定的故障机械，然后根据他们的神情与他们是如何接受的，显然官方对你说的话完全不买账。
一个机械人陷入狂暴因为妒嫉？一个机械人？这对他们来说是肯定的，机械人不可能拥有人类的特性，例如情感，所以考虑到这点，你听起来是个不折不扣的疯子了。无论如何，那家公司与介入 Vocaloid 制作的组织已经联络并填写你的报告第一百万次，只是这次，是被警方填上的。

You made it clear to them that the psycho machine was out near the streets, close to the community dumpster, but once they returned, your eyes had expanded at the news that Kaito was nowhere near the area. You yourself went out there to ensure that they had circled the correct place, but once you got there… Kaito was indeed gone.
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It was pouring cats and dogs outside since the thunder alone wasn’t enough to creep the Jesus out of you. You shakily backed your suitcase before zipping it right up. Your aim was to stay over at your sister’s for a change since there’s no way you’re staying here alone with a crazy, Kaito out there somewhere.
You were angry at the fact that you had to explain to the school board about what happened to the Kagamine twins, the story was faulty to them, so, to keep your job as a their music teacher, it was your duty to replace the school’s androids? Thank heavens for Kaito…
你清楚地告诉他们，那台疯狂的机械就在街道附近，靠近社区废料箱，但是当他们一返回，你的双眼在听到 Kaito 根本不在社区附近的消息时不禁睁大。你自己出去到那里确保他们巡的地方是正确的，但是当你到达那里…Kaito 确实是不见了。
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此时外面正下着狂风暴雨因为单是雷声是不足以吓死你的。你颤抖着收拾好你的行李然后把拉链拉上。你的目标是作为交换在你妹妹那里过夜因为你不可能单独和一个在某个地方疯了的 Kaito，待在这里。
你生气的是，你必须向学校董事会解释镜音双子发生了什么事，故事对他们来说是错的，所以，为了保住你身为他们的音乐老师的工作，替换学校的安卓是你的责任？TM 太感谢 Kaito了…

Lucky enough, the company was generous enough to refund your money in regards to Miku‐ you did have her on warrant, but Kaito… Even with return bargain, he’s a problem. Seeing that they had record of your complaints with the Kaito voca‐droid, they were willing to at least give you a portion of his sum, if you should return him. However, replacement will be cancelled, but right now, you don’t mind.
Forget voca‐droids! You wouldn’t want to see ANOTHER of their kind… Experience with Kaito was traumatic enough, though you KNEW it was still your fault.
Well, enough about that, you sat alone as you watched the rain drops from afar. The evening sure was chilling, you know, the dark clouds, the eerie atmosphere, and you know what’s perfect too? The carbon filled bloodstains on your walls and floors‐thank goodness for indoor massacre… Normal houses aren’t complete without those. Good luck getting rid of those.
幸运的是，那家公司很慷慨地退还未来那方面的钱給你– 你确实是有她的保修证，但是 Kaito 就…即使讨价还价，他（还）是一个问题。看在他们已经记录你对这个 Kaitovocadroid 的投诉，他们愿意至少给你一部分钱，如果你把他退回来。虽然如此，替换将会被取消，但是现在，你不介意。
忘了 Voca-droids 吧！你不会想要看到他们之中另一个同类了…和 Kaito 的经验已经足够造成精神创伤，虽然你知道那还是你的错。
好了，够了，当你看着远处的雨滴时，你一个人坐了下来。晚上肯定是寒冷的，你懂的，乌云密布，怪异恐怖的气氛，然后你知道什么也是完美的吗？你墙壁上和地上那些充满碳的血迹– 真的要对室内大屠杀谢天谢地…普通的房子没有那些是不完整的。祝你好运清除那些东西。

It doesn’t matter now, you did hurt the automaton’s feelings and his actions are basically your responsibility, but that doesn’t make you the bad guy for wanting to protect everyone else from him. What were you supposed to do?
….
“…‐ I’m doing it again” you bit your lips, realizing that you were basically spacing out again, joining the silence as the rain intervened with its unrhythmic, mellifluent patterns. You knew you were only trying to fight the guilt.
Anyway, once you turned the knob to exit the room, you immediately froze at the sounds of footsteps down the first floor. Are you even hearing it right?
现在已经没关系了，你确实伤害了那台机械的感受，而他的行为基本上是你的责任，但这并不能让你成为坏人因为你想要保护其他人。你应该做什么？
“…我又来了。”你咬着你的唇，意识到你基本上又发呆了，就在雨水以其毫无节奏，动听的模式干扰着，加入了沉默（尼玛这句拗死了）。你知道你只是在尝试打击那种罪恶感。
无论如何，当你一旋开门的把手离开房间时，下面一楼传来的脚步声使你立刻僵住。你真的听到了吗？

*step step step*
Of course you heard that right! But the footstep patterns were deep and off beat. You tried hard not to think about ‘who’ or ‘what’ it might be, obviously scared that it might be Kaito himself in the house with you. Silently putting down your luggage, you tried your hardest to inaudibly make your way down stairs. You leaned against the walls for support before venturing down the stairs, making sure that there’s nothing down there before proceeding; however, as soon as you got the base, you didn’t see anything in particular, however, you did notice that the rain was louder from another section across the living room.
Following the loud ‘pitter patter’, you had realized that the sliding door to your back porch was left wide open, to which the rain droplets were bouncing in and making a mass of the place. Wait… You didn’t remember even opening those doors, so once you eyed the floors, you were able to make out wet trails of footsteps from the outside. Like anyone else, you began to panic at this moment. There’s no way you’re going to investigate who came in here, and being the horror and I.D fan, silent intrusions NEVER weigh well and most importantly, curiosity always end up killing the dam cat!
In fright, you did silently slide the doors close, but the very moment you turned to go get your things you‐
‐“…There you are, Masuta… “
*哒哒哒*
你当然听得真切了！可是那脚步声的模式是强烈与不正常的。你拼命不去想可能‘是谁'或者‘是什么'，对 Kaito 自己可能与你一起在这个房子内明显感到害怕。默默地放下你的行李，你尽可能地尝试不让自己出声走下楼梯。在步下楼梯前，你靠在墙壁上取得支撑点，在前进之前确保下面没有东西；然而，你一抵达底层时，你并没有看到什么特别的东西，虽然如此，你确实注意到横过客厅另一部分的雨声变得更加响亮。
随着那响亮的“噼噼啪啪”声，你发现到那道在你后面走廊的滑动门被敞开了，雨滴正在弹进来然后把这个地方弄得乱糟糟的。等等…你不记得你有开过这些门，所以当你一看到地板时，你已经能够辨识出来从外面进来一步步的潮湿脚印。像其他人一样，当下你开始恐慌。你绝不可能去调查是谁进来这里，作为恐怖片和 I.D 的粉，静默的入侵永远不能仔细掂量而且最重要的是，好奇心最后总是杀死那只倒霉的猫！
惊恐之下，你默默地把门关上了，但是就在你要转过身去取你东西的那刻你-
“…终于找到你了，Masuta…”
P/S：厚厚厚，终于出现了~ Master 准备受死吧~

No way… Your breath hitched at that very voice, slowly turning around to see Kaito himself. He was a wet wreck, even worse than how he waswhen you had left him out by the street side. His white coat was half torn, bloody and muddy, not to mention how messy and dirty his hairwas. His eyes were still a sickening red and the elastic‐silicon skin on his face was broken, revealing a few wires and metallic structures…What the hell happened to him?! Kaito’s current appearance was enough to even spasm a nightmare out of Freddy Krueger himself! Hecertainly wasn’t fan‐girl worthy now ﴾we all know that’s a lie) !
“...I see you left the back doors open again. You always seem to do that, however, I do expect that from you because you are quite careless… masuta”
Slowly backing away, you began to notice something shiny in Kaito’s hand… Is that…Another of you knife? Oh no…
“K‐kaito.. Wait. Wait a second” you tried to reason with him, subliminally knowing that you can’t outrun him either, even if you should try. He wouldn’t hurt you, right? It’s against his coding. Voca‐droids cannot hurt their mastersright…But
… neither can they harm each other, and Kaito did breach that rule!
不可能…你一听到那道声音呼吸一紧，慢慢地转过身看见 Kaito 自己。他根本就是个湿淋淋的残骸，比你将他留在路边的时候还要糟糕。他的白袍被撕掉一半，满是血迹与污泥，更不用说他的头发是有多脏乱。他的眸子依然是一片病态的赤红色还有他脸上弹性硅皮肤破了，露出几根电线和金属结构...他特么发生了什么事？！Kaito 现在的外貌已经足够給弗莱迪·克鲁格（著名恐怖片的主角）本身激起一个恶梦了！他现在当然不再有被女性花痴的价值了（我们当然知道这是谎言！）
“…我看见你又让后门被敞开了。你看起来总是那样做，但是，我确实预料你会这样因为你很粗心…Masuta。”
Kaito 这次没有笑容，就像他时常和你说话的时候。事实上，他拥有的某些亲和力已经没有了，被某一种空洞取而代之。他没有表现任何形式的情感，并且让你感到害怕，鉴于他能够做什么，以及你对他做了什么。
慢慢地退后，你开始注意到 Kaito 手中闪闪发光的东西...那是...你另外一把刀吗？ 不好了…
“K-Kaito…等。等一下。”你试图向他解释，潜意识里也知道你无法超越他，即使你应该尝试。他不会伤害你的，对吗？这样是在违反他的编码。Voca-droids不能伤害他们的 Master 对吧… 可是
…他们也不能伤害彼此，Kaito却违反了这条规则！


P/S：为什么我会觉得这样的 Kaito 也很帅？！为什么我会希望被他扑倒？！为什么？！十万个为什么也改变不了我在他面前是个 uke……你们猜吧……

As soon as you backed away again, Kaito had immediately approached you with each step, the phlegmatic display on his face slowly turning into one of hatred. His damp hair had curtained those red eyes of his, casting a shadow within the upper exteriors of his face.
“Let master at least help you Kaito! You don’t look so good” Well, no sh*t Sherlock! Though this time, Kaito isn’t buying your act.
“…My masuta? 'Help me?' You are no different than the others, masuta. You lied… You wanted me uninstalled. You never loved me. I was never your favourite. You wanted me gone, like my other masters… If masuta can’t love me, then masuta is defective. And if masuta is defective‐”
Kaito’s voice was slowly beginning to change into something much angrier… As if some dark entity was spawning from his robotic voice.
“…then, masuta too needs to be uninstalled”
With those very words, Kaito began advancing towards you, and hell no were you going to just stand there! By just the slip of your sleeve, you managed to escape Kaito’s grasp.
Wrapping your mind around what’s really going to happen to you, you had forced yourself to run even faster, heading straight for the door‐ forget your things! Once you got there, you had realized that the door knob was screwed with! The doors can’t even be pushed open! Just WHEN did Kaito have the time to do this?!
就在你再次往后退，Kaito 立刻一步步朝向你走了过去，他脸上呈现出的那种冷静逐渐转变成一种恨意。他潮湿的发丝遮住了他那双赤红色的眸子，在他脸的外部投下了一片阴影。
“至少让 Master 帮你一下 Kaito！你看起来很不好。”好吧，去他狗屎的福尔摩斯！虽然这一次，Kaito对你的行为不买帐。
“…我的 Masuta？帮我？你和别人没有什么不一样，Masuta。你骗我…你要 uninstall 我。你从来没有爱过我。我从来都不是你的最爱。你要我消失，就像我其他的Master 一样…如果 Masuta 不能爱我，那么 Masuta 是故障了。如果 Masuta 故障了–”
Kaito 的声音慢慢开始变成一种更加愤怒的东西…似乎有些黑暗的实体自他机械式的声音中产生。
“…那么，Masuta 也必须被 uninstall。”
一说完这些话，Kaito 开始向你走过来，你当然不会就站在那里！你的衣袖只是一滑，你便成功逃离Kaito 的紧握。
在真正弄懂了将会发生在你的身上的事，你已经迫使自己跑得更快，直直朝那道门奔去– 忘了你的东西吧！你一抵达那里，你才发现到门的把手已经被弄坏了！这道门连推都推不开！Kaito 究竟什么时候有时间做这样的事？！
P/S：大家试试看以自己个人的诠释念出 Kaito 以上段落的台词，你会发现你是有多悲愤……那就是 Kaito 的心情，我不知道大家，但是我确实感受到了，三更半夜里喊好爽~

“…What are you doing, masuta? Do not make it any more inconvenient for both me and yourself. Please come here…”
Looking behind you, you could see Katio surfacing from the corner of the hallway, slowly waltzing over to you, as if not in any rush at all.
“You are human. You cannot outrun me…” he smiled…. SMILED… A rather goofy one at that, basically taking it for a game of cat and mouse. In the fright of the moment, you made a run for it, but this time, you headed upstairs, only for Kaito to observe the direction of your footsteps.
You had no idea how advance the intellect of these machines were, so obviously, you can neither run nor hide from Shion Kaito. He’ll eventually figure out the most possible places you may be and then, he’ll find you. And when he finds you…
“Don’t hide, masuta~ I’ll find you, eventually, and when I do‐” Kaito began to sing... Basically enjoying the chase for you, idly climbing the steps and dragging his hardened blue nails into the walls, a way in which he knows you can hear him coming.
“‐I’ll make sure you understand... how much I love you. I really do love you, masuta! Do you not believe me?! ... I love you so much I can no longer stand you.."
‐To be continued (very soon)
“…你在做什么，Masuta？别再給我和你自己带来更多不便了。请过来这里…”
你看向你的后面，你可以看见 Kaito 从走廊的角落显现出来，慢慢地悠然走向你，似乎一点都不匆忙。
“你是人类。你是不能超越我的…” 他笑着说道…笑着…一个相当痴傻的笑容，基本上是为了一个猫抓鼠的游戏。在当下的恐惧中，你拔腿就跑，但是这次，你是往楼上的方向去，但这只是让 Kaito 观察你脚步的方向。
你根本不知道这些机械的智力有多高，显然，你既不能逃脱也不能躲避始音Kaito。他最终会找出你最可能待的地方然后，他会找到你。而当他找到你的时候…
“别躲了，Masuta~我最后，会找到你的，当我找到你的时候 –” Kaito 开始唱起歌来…基本上在享受着追逐你，漫不经心地爬上台阶然后将他坚硬的蓝指甲放在墙壁上拖刮着，一种他知道你可以听到他到来的方式。
“- 我会确保你明白的…我是有多爱你。我真的好爱你啊，Masuta！你不相信我吗？！…我爱你爱到我再也不能忍受你了…”
- 下一章再续（很快的）

这里真的要指出 “FANGIRLS” 一词的错误概念。
我看到网上一篇文章解释 “fangirls” 是在欧洲指腐女的意思 —— 尼玛不会翻译就不要翻译！！我看到整篇都是形容腐女如何如何的简直要晕！！
Fangirls 真正的意思是指十分崇拜某明星、电影角色、演员、动漫或虚拟角色等的女性粉丝，通常是指异性，不是同性，也可以称为女花痴或女狂迷。而且不只是在欧洲通用，在英美等西方国家都是非常通用的词，连《始音》制作人员都有用到。例句：“I am a fangirl of Kaito” 或者 “I am a Kaito fangirl” —— 我是 Kaito 的女性粉丝。相反的也有 "fanboy" 一词，但是极少用到。
也有”Fangirling" 一词，意思就是女花痴一看到自己喜欢的偶像或者帅哥便会兴奋地尖叫 Kyaaaaaa 卡哇伊、犯晕、脸红心跳十分激动、痴迷、一直盯着人看的行为。 I am fangirling over Kaito —— 我一看到 Kaito 就犯花痴。好像我们在演唱会看到大哥出现的那种反应就是了。
如果是腐女，英文正确的词是 “Yaoi fan”，意思就是 “男性腐向 cp 粉”，如果是心水百合的，可以称为 "Yuri fan"。这两个词其实男女都可以通用，男的如果说自己是耽美狼，也可以说 "I am a Yaoi fan of Kaito and Len”—— 我是冰蕉腐向 cp 粉。但是男的通常不会这么说啦。

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刚刚做的鼠绘，果然不同于手绘啊，一点一点的手酸死了，可能是第一次用电脑画的关系吧。过程中一直有画长发的欲望，结果一直删……气死我了。

完成线图，画得好奇怪啊啊啊！555555

尝试上色，好失败！我果然是上色***…… ┳＿┳