To 60/F (OP):
"But here, all people want to do is diss each other"
- Sorry, but I don't think that's a fair statement. Yes, there are several posts aimed at questioning your motivation/psychological well-being (assuming this is what you mean by "dissing"). But "all"? See posts
#29, #35,
#40 (#44),
#45, #55 and probably a few others: these are genuine, thought-out replies to your original question.
In fact, from your posts, your attitude does seem dubious. You invited people to express their opinions and perhaps debate with you, yet your response was "you can't tell me the meaning of life." Where's the open-mindedness which is the spirit of true discussion? You spent much time counter-attacking people "dissing" you rather than discussing with people trying to answer your question, and yet you complained you couldn't have an intelligent discussion? Whose problem is that? Seriously, what have you contributed to this discussion?
I'm saying this not to "diss" you but just to remind you that blaming others does not solve your own problem.