23. You’re On Your Own, Kid你在你自己上面孩子
pushing 40的老娼用现在的作词功力去写19岁写的东西会是什么样,我交给出了这个long story short小镇女孩coming of age版的答案。作为午夜中最让人想起老公交的歌,它没有旧调重弹想象中的无趣。交姐用更成熟的作词技巧和动人的正面情感让这首歌格外吸引人。chorus的淡化和循序渐进的bridge/outro让这首歌变成了一个高中毕业典礼的幻灯片,我们可以看到公交一步步走来(自以为自己的成功都来自于个人努力)的点点滴滴。这首歌讨巧之处在于,在听歌时,我们会代入叙述者,而不是自己。所以我们不会觉得交姐是骑在高马上说教,而是在想我和交姐一样努力,也会这么成功吧,然后激情下单13个版本的午夜
I hear it in your voice, you're smoking with your boys
I touch my phone as if it's your face
I didn't choose this town, I dream of getting out
There's just one who could make me stay
这是典型的早期公交的歌词,“我在耐心的等你注意我”这种低姿态是早期歌曲中常有的。技校妹知道自己在社会的梯子上属于什么位置,年轻的交姐(处于种种原因)也觉得自己低帅哥一等,但不同的是技校妹永远会在那里原地踏步,我交已经是世女一,究竟哪里出了问题?
I see the great escape, so long, Daisy May
I picked the petals, he loves me not
Something different bloomed, writing in my room
I play my songs in the parking lot I'll run away
之所以说这是comingofage,是因为这首歌有一个很好的transition,从boy problem到自我成长。我交不再是个好女孩,开始想自己成为豪门。弥足珍贵的是,从这里开始,后面便不再有那么多关于男人的表述,取而代之的是辛勤努力和友谊手链,这个shift也能看出我交的成长
I hosted parties and starved my body Like I'd be saved by a perfect kiss
这句话本质上是与我交早期的思想相反的,因为我交之前的歌literally在表述有了男人就是有了一切
I looked around in a blood-soaked gown
And I saw something they can't take away
'Cause there were pages turned with the bridges burned
Everything you lose is a step you take
So, make the friendship bracelets, take the moment and taste it
You've got no reason to be afraid
这个最抽象的片段反而是这首歌最有画面感的地方。在看了我交成长故事后,我们和我交一起站在舞台上回首过去感慨万千。I saw something they can't take away,Everything you lose is a step you take,You've got no reason to be afraid这三句单独拿出来会觉得很蠢很cheesy,但在这里一连串唱出来就很带感,因为它们都对应了前面歌词里的剧情,并不是空洞的说教