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I’m over a month now and I feel so much better. Sometimes when I get into bed at night now, I just remember how tired I was and how much pain I was in when I used to go to sleep after my binges. It brings such a huge smile to my face now, that I can go to bed pain-free. It must seem so pathetic to people who have never experienced this.
戒了一个月后，我感觉好了很多。有时候晚上当我在床上，我就会回想起我以前睡前SY后多么累，多么痛苦。不过现在我会带着愉快的笑容，并且无虑地睡觉。我的故事或许对没有经历过的人看起来是多么可悲。

I had just finished year 10 and summer
break had begun. You know what that means- Lots of fapping and porn. I
literally did NOTHING but that. Oh, yeah, I started working out at that time
too, but fapping sapped so much energy out of me I could barely perform in the
gym. Aside from that, all that porn had its toll on my brain. I had become
almost TOTALLY emotionless. I am serious. This is a hell you do NOT want to go
to. Someone could tell me a story of a child being violently raped and I would
not feel ANYTHING. I remember sitting down one day, staring at the floor. I
don't know why this memory strikes me so hard, but I was just thinking to
myself "I wish I could just fade away into the darkness and stay there,
away from everything". I had lost the ability to feel emotion. I thought
it was me just growing up, but I was wrong- it was porn. Porn is a parasite.
Now, school started. I was scared of other people. I was terrified of other
people. The same guys that I can easily push around now (not that I do...) were
terrifying. They actually tried to befriend me (and now we're all good friends)
and I hated them. Yup, porn was that reason. Not only that, but my brain had
become extremely dull. I had a reputation of being a smart kid from the
previous year. Being a small school, all the teachers know who is who so when I
went to year 11 apparently all the senior teachers were looking forward to
teaching me (they told me this lmao). They were disappointed- my brain was so
fogged I could not think at all. I remember in math class I had forgotten basic
algebra, and the teacher was like "you were supposed to be smart!".
Was I? I couldn't remember anything past a week, and I didn't have the brain
power to retain what we learned the day before.
高一（美国10年级）的学期刚完，暑假要来了。有知道这意味着什么-大量的sy和色情片。除此之外，我简直什么都没做过。哦对了，我那段时候也开始了健身，可是sy耗费了大量的能量，令我很勉强地能去健身室健身。此外，这些色情片也令我的脑神经付出很大的代价。我变得几乎完全对世事冷漠。我认真地告诉你，这是一个你不想去的地狱。曾经有人告诉一个孩子被强暴的故事，我完全没有什么感觉，我记得的是，我坐在家里整天和盯着地板。我不记得为什么这个回忆对我打击这么大，但我曾是错的-这就是色情片。色情片是一个寄生虫。当开学的时候，我非常害怕在人多聚集的地方。我恐惧其他人。现在那些我可以随意打闹的朋友（曾是多么可怕）。他们实际上真的想跟我做朋友，可是当时我讨厌他们。是滴，色情片就是这个原因。不知这样，我的脑筋变得极奇迟钝。过去几年我曾被认为是一个聪明的孩子；学习上聪慧，所有的老师都知道我是谁，很明显所有的12年级老师都想教我（他们告诉我这实在荒谬。）他们全都失望了，我的脑袋模糊到我根本想不到东西。我记得在数学课上，我忘记了基础的代数，然后老师告诉我“有本应该很聪明才是呀！”是吗？我几乎不记得上个星期发生过的事，甚至乎我没有脑力去记住我们学过的东西。

今天现在更新两段吧，我该休息去了

顶一个！
　　　　　　　　 ∽∽∽ 念起即断，念起不随，念起即觉，觉之即无。∽∽∽
　　　　　　　　兄弟们～加油！
　　　　　　　　　　　坚持戒色！永不放弃！
——我是偶想打楼主PP，我坚持戒色！

收藏了，不但可以警示自己还可以多学学英语~

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I'm not even 13 years old yet, and I'm pretty much screwed over with porn. I'll always be hyper-sensitized towards porn, and that saddens me greatly.
我还没有到13岁，但我基本上已经是陷入得很深在色情片上了。我经常性都是对色情片表现地极度亢奋，然而色情片也让我极度悲伤。

由于晚上也没有太多时间上网，所以更行得比较慢。这些都是自己手动翻译出来的，要是翻译错了，大家多多包涵吧。

现在反正知道sy是有害的就行了

马克