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i had to translate this part from the script because i found it so poignant: (the setup, so ES ends up back with JB in the palace --> she tells CY she is going to act the part of MataHari and get info for him; ES reads the letter to herself and has no idea who "that person" that the letter is talking about. frustrated, she has a drink with JB).
Spoiler: JB: Drink slowly. ES: Meeting men. Trying to like them. But always, my heart never opened to them.
[CY is at the front door to the pharmacy and can hear something from within]
ES: My heart goes closer, then stops. and stops again. And then grows cold. Its so annoying. Then I close the door, and hide once more.
[CY walks closer and sees ES talking]
ES: That feeling has always been first. This person isn't it. This isn't it. Evenafter meeting CY, it was like that.
[CY startles when he hears his name, thinks to leave, but stays to listen].
ES: Always establishing boundaries. Don't come in. Don't come in.
[CY can't help but feel hurt]
ES: It wasn't because I knew I was going to leave someday. Jang Sung seng. JB: Yes.
[CY turns to look at her]
ES: It was just that my heart wouldn't be like that [like how it used to be]. When we were together, at times it was so familiar. I yearned so much it was hard tobear. I felt those feelings, but that person- it just couldn't be this person (CY).
[CY quietly leaves without a word. ES keeps talking]
ES: But whenever I turned around, he was there. Looking at me. Even when I couldn't see him, if I asked if he was there, he always replied "i'm here". (ES wipes her tears). I must be drunk. I better go to sleep. (She looks at the diary pages next to her). I don't know who you [the person who wrote them] are, why you wrote this letter to me, and i really don't know who "that person" is, you write of.
i had to translate this part from the script because i found it so poignant: (the setup, so ES ends up back with JB in the palace --> she tells CY she is going to act the part of MataHari and get info for him; ES reads the letter to herself and has no idea who "that person" that the letter is talking about. frustrated, she has a drink with JB).
Spoiler: JB: Drink slowly. ES: Meeting men. Trying to like them. But always, my heart never opened to them.
[CY is at the front door to the pharmacy and can hear something from within]
ES: My heart goes closer, then stops. and stops again. And then grows cold. Its so annoying. Then I close the door, and hide once more.
[CY walks closer and sees ES talking]
ES: That feeling has always been first. This person isn't it. This isn't it. Evenafter meeting CY, it was like that.
[CY startles when he hears his name, thinks to leave, but stays to listen].
ES: Always establishing boundaries. Don't come in. Don't come in.
[CY can't help but feel hurt]
ES: It wasn't because I knew I was going to leave someday. Jang Sung seng. JB: Yes.
[CY turns to look at her]
ES: It was just that my heart wouldn't be like that [like how it used to be]. When we were together, at times it was so familiar. I yearned so much it was hard tobear. I felt those feelings, but that person- it just couldn't be this person (CY).
[CY quietly leaves without a word. ES keeps talking]
ES: But whenever I turned around, he was there. Looking at me. Even when I couldn't see him, if I asked if he was there, he always replied "i'm here". (ES wipes her tears). I must be drunk. I better go to sleep. (She looks at the diary pages next to her). I don't know who you [the person who wrote them] are, why you wrote this letter to me, and i really don't know who "that person" is, you write of.
