PART 2 “这首歌写的是一个人喜欢上了梦中的人,就希望每天做梦,能够时常见到他,和他恋爱,后来他再也梦不到那个人了,觉得特别沮丧,最后他死了,他觉得这样就可以和那个人在一起了。”J这样向主持人介绍着自己最近大热的新歌,主持人听完,赞赏地说着些什么,J其实并没有听进去太多,忍不住再一次问自己,写出这样的歌词到底是不是自己心底所向往的结局? 终于结束一天的宣传通告,拖着疲惫的身体洗漱完毕,将自己埋进舒适的被子里,头沾到枕头的瞬间,立刻就沉沉地滑入梦乡,不知道,今晚还会梦见那个人么? 又是那架钢琴,又是那段旋律,那个人果然又如约而至,依然是似有若无的迷雾,依然看不清那人的样貌,但那清瘦、比自己还略高一些的身形必然是他,而非她,明明不是GAY,但是一次牵手,或是一个吻,那种不知从何而来的安心和温暖却让自己无法自拔……然后,又是一阵异动,这个梦里的世界开始崩塌,撕裂般的痛苦又猛地冲进心房,又一次惊醒,然后又一次的睁眼到天亮。
NOVEMBER RAIN PART 1 “下个月的演唱会,有空做我的嘉宾么?”早就编辑好的短信、已经在草稿箱躺了好几天的短信,手指在发送键的上空徘徊很久,最终还是将这短信扔回了草稿箱。什么时候开始,电话那头越来越敷衍,短信回复越来越少,最后自己再也没有勇气拨通那个号码,现在竟是连传送一封短信的勇气都在冷漠和疏远里耗尽了么?别说生日礼物就连一声祝福都没有,曾经说好的新专辑站台也好像从未存在过一样,微薄上满满都是和别人的互动,笑得那么开心,相比之下在这里独自悲伤的自己真是有些可笑…… 以不给自己睡着的机会为理由,让工作人员把时间表排到爆满,大家都露出担心神色,却只是笑说,要是有机会睡着又一下睡不饱会觉得更累,其实真正的理由只有自己明白,只是不想让自己有太多空闲时间去思念那个人而已。 新专辑的发布会兼续约记者会,一众好友都送来了花篮,可是一眼却只看到那个刺眼的名字,然后看到名字之前过分官方的语句,突然莫名地感到一阵刺痛,赶忙将视线移开,稳住自己的情绪…… 新歌发表演唱会,那人送来的花篮又出现在一众花篮中,这一次似乎没有那么痛了呢,是痛过了头开始麻木,还是真的开始淡忘,已经没有勇气再做深究。突然发现,主花和上次一样,是一种很少在花篮里见到的黄色兰花。有些疑惑,但太过繁忙的一切很快将这一切抛诸脑后。
PART3 会场里的歌迷依然没有散去,他们坚持在那里呼喊着偶像的名字,高呼着安可,依然坚信,他们深爱的那个男人会像前几次一样再次出现。时间在流逝,但是他们依然在坚持,终于,他又一次出现在舞台上,还有一架钢琴,修长的手指抚过黑白键,流淌出淡淡的忧伤,然后他醇厚的声音融入这音乐—— When I look into your eyes I can see a love restrained But darlin' when I hold you' don't you know I feel the same 'Cause nothin' lasts forever and we both know hearts can change And it's hard to hold a candle in the cold November rain We've been through this such a long long time just trying to killing the pain'oh yeah But lovers always come and lovers always go An no one's really sure who's lettin' go today walking away If we could take the time to lay it on the line Icould rest my head' just knowing that you were mine,All mine So if you want to love me then darlin' don't refrain Or I'll just end up my walking in the cold November rain Do you need some time...on you own? Do you need some time...all alone? Everybody needs some time...on their own! Don't you know you need some time...all alone. I know it's hard to keep an open heart When even friends seem out to harm you But if you could heal a broken heart Wouldn't time be out to charm you Sometimes I need some time' on my own Sometimes I need some time' all alone Everybody needs some time on their own Don't you know you need some time' all alone And when your fears subside and shadows still remain So never mind the darkness' we still can find a way 'Cause nothin' lasts forever even cold November rain Don't ya think that you need somebody Don't ya think that you need someone Everybody needs somebody You' re not the only one You're not the only one Don't you think that you need somebody Don't you think that you need someone Everybody needs somebody You're not the only one Don't you think that you need somebody Don't you think that you need someone Everybody needs somebody 他至始至终都只是半闭着眼,没有去看那人一眼,但他就是坚信,那个人知道,这首歌是在唱给他听…… 一周后,收到一封来自香港的邀请函,邀请他去做演唱会的嘉宾,和邀请函一起到的还有一大束海芋,一大片黄色,围着一簇橙红色……