I read a moving and romantic story tonight that made me uneasy...
Having watched a movie alone, I am occupied by a lonely feeling...I want to talk to someone but of course my friends have fallen asleep now,it's so late after all...
Honestly speaking,though so long a time has went by,I still can't forget her...I have a girlfriend now and she's pretty good,but one always has a secret feeling that he doesn't want to mention...I write this diary not to show my feeling but to try decreasing my loneliness and the feeling of doing something wrong...I know what I write now is true because it is about me and I needn't lie...
I must admit that I falled in love with her in the first sight I saw her,she's smart and her mischievous look attracted me deeply...maybe as a high school student I was so easy to be attracted...I was crazy those days...I was grade 1 then,and everyone around me concentrated on learning because they had the desire to get higher grades...but it wasn't for me...I took it for granted that my puppy love was more valuable...
Time went by so quickly that I soon became a grade 2 student.I tried all that I could to make her know I loved her...But it didn't work...She seemed to try to keep me at a distanse...I got addicted to computer games those days...just to make it keep myself company...She may live a very good life now,so it was good that I didn't chase after her more...And when I was in grade 1 I also learnt a lot of knowledge because I wanted to show her that I was very able, it's her contribution...
Then everything was simple...But when in grade 3,another two girls,one I liked and one loved me,made things even worse than what it had been in grade 2 during which she made me upset... It's said that it's happier to be loved than to love one, but we everyone prefers to love...So as you can guess,I was unhappy again...and it was a beginning,a miserale beginning... Since then I had been thinking I wouldn't love any girl again until my present girlfriend appeared...
During the time I had that thought I hurt some girls' feelings...Some of them are happy now and some have not been so far and also some that I don't know...I want to say sorry to them but I didn't have the opportunity...maybe for some of them it is better not to disturb them, but for more I should have said sorry...Having no opportunity, I can just experience the bad feeling everyday...But today I hope you can see this diary...I admit my fault here and I write down my experience.Never did I mean to hurt you, but I did hurt you...So I'm not mean to ask for your forgiveness,I just want to make you know that I have realised my fault and I will try my best to make my new girlfriend happier...Some of you may not be able to be friends with me, I must admit it's my loss, but I will give you my best wishes...
I don't contact with my girlfriend so much because I now know we needn't waste a lot time talking if we really love another, and if we don't love another, we also needn't say much to pretend to be romantic...
I promise again that I will give my best wishes to you everyone and I will not cheat any girls in the future...
After writing this, it's very late but I don't feel tired,instead, I have a fully feeling in my stomach...
很开心说出了压抑很久的话，自己犯的错我不敢奢求别人的原谅，我也知道对别人的伤害很难抹平，但我会尽力把未来的生活把握好，毕竟我不能再是当初那个天天打麻将喝酒玩游戏聚赌的小孩了……看完电影再写完这个真的不早了，睡吧……
Having watched a movie alone, I am occupied by a lonely feeling...I want to talk to someone but of course my friends have fallen asleep now,it's so late after all...
Honestly speaking,though so long a time has went by,I still can't forget her...I have a girlfriend now and she's pretty good,but one always has a secret feeling that he doesn't want to mention...I write this diary not to show my feeling but to try decreasing my loneliness and the feeling of doing something wrong...I know what I write now is true because it is about me and I needn't lie...
I must admit that I falled in love with her in the first sight I saw her,she's smart and her mischievous look attracted me deeply...maybe as a high school student I was so easy to be attracted...I was crazy those days...I was grade 1 then,and everyone around me concentrated on learning because they had the desire to get higher grades...but it wasn't for me...I took it for granted that my puppy love was more valuable...
Time went by so quickly that I soon became a grade 2 student.I tried all that I could to make her know I loved her...But it didn't work...She seemed to try to keep me at a distanse...I got addicted to computer games those days...just to make it keep myself company...She may live a very good life now,so it was good that I didn't chase after her more...And when I was in grade 1 I also learnt a lot of knowledge because I wanted to show her that I was very able, it's her contribution...
Then everything was simple...But when in grade 3,another two girls,one I liked and one loved me,made things even worse than what it had been in grade 2 during which she made me upset... It's said that it's happier to be loved than to love one, but we everyone prefers to love...So as you can guess,I was unhappy again...and it was a beginning,a miserale beginning... Since then I had been thinking I wouldn't love any girl again until my present girlfriend appeared...
During the time I had that thought I hurt some girls' feelings...Some of them are happy now and some have not been so far and also some that I don't know...I want to say sorry to them but I didn't have the opportunity...maybe for some of them it is better not to disturb them, but for more I should have said sorry...Having no opportunity, I can just experience the bad feeling everyday...But today I hope you can see this diary...I admit my fault here and I write down my experience.Never did I mean to hurt you, but I did hurt you...So I'm not mean to ask for your forgiveness,I just want to make you know that I have realised my fault and I will try my best to make my new girlfriend happier...Some of you may not be able to be friends with me, I must admit it's my loss, but I will give you my best wishes...
I don't contact with my girlfriend so much because I now know we needn't waste a lot time talking if we really love another, and if we don't love another, we also needn't say much to pretend to be romantic...
I promise again that I will give my best wishes to you everyone and I will not cheat any girls in the future...
After writing this, it's very late but I don't feel tired,instead, I have a fully feeling in my stomach...
很开心说出了压抑很久的话，自己犯的错我不敢奢求别人的原谅，我也知道对别人的伤害很难抹平，但我会尽力把未来的生活把握好，毕竟我不能再是当初那个天天打麻将喝酒玩游戏聚赌的小孩了……看完电影再写完这个真的不早了，睡吧……
