我前天半夜看纪念会。 V里那个围着转圈圈的小孩们那个画面,除了neverland有这个雕塑,纪念会合唱will u be there的人那么那么那么开心,本来好好站着然后很突兀的做了这个牵手转圈圈动作,再然后画面就看似不经意的切到了那个坐在正中间金棺材前面的帽子老头走在过道上。 另外后面的一个镜头说着巴黎,镜头直切过去,但是镜头的正中是那个帽子老头。
In a blog post
on her Myspace page, Lisa Marie says Jackson “knew” he would die the
same way her famous father did. She also expresses her grief over
Jackson’s sudden death, and explains a little more about the unique
relationship with a man she says she desperately wanted to “save.” She
writes: Years ago Michael and I were having a deep conversation about life in general. I can’t recall the exact subject matter but he may have been questioning me about the circumstances of my Fathers Death. At some point he paused, he stared at me very intensely and he stated
with an almost calm certainty, “I am afraid that I am going to end up
like him, the way he did.” I promptly tried to deter him from the idea, at which point he just
shrugged his shoulders and nodded almost matter of fact as if to let me
know, he knew what he knew and that was kind of that. 14 years later I am sitting here watching on the news an ambulance
leaves the driveway of his home, the big gates, the crowds outside the
gates, the coverage, the crowds outside the hospital, the Cause of death
and what may have led up to it and the memory of this conversation hit
me, as did the unstoppable tears. A predicted ending by him, by loved ones and by me, but what I didn’t
predict was how much it was going to hurt when it finally happened. The person I failed to help is being transferred right now to the LA County Coroners office for his Autopsy. All of my indifference and detachment that I worked so hard to
achieve over the years has just gone into the bowels of hell and right
now I am gutted. I am going to say now what I have never said before because I want the truth out there for once. Our relationship was not “a sham” as is being reported in the press.
It was an unusual relationship yes, where two unusual people who did not
live or know a “Normal life” found a connection, perhaps with some
suspect timing on his part. Nonetheless, I do believe he loved me as
much as he could love anyone and I loved him very much. I wanted to “save him” I wanted to save him from the inevitable which is what has just happened. His family and his loved ones also wanted to save him from this as
well but didn’t know how and this was 14 years ago. We all worried that
this would be the outcome then. At that time, In trying to save him, I almost lost myself. He was an incredibly dynamic force and power that was not to be underestimated. When he used it for something good, It was the best and when he used it for something bad, It was really, REALLY bad. Mediocrity was not a concept that would even for a second enter Michael Jackson’s being or actions. I became very ill and emotionally/ spiritually exhausted in my quest
to save him from certain self-destructive behavior and from the awful
vampires and leeches he would always manage to magnetize around him. I was in over my head while trying. I had my children to care for, I had to make a decision. The hardest decision I have ever had to make, which was to walk away
and let his fate have him, even though I desperately loved him and tried
to stop or reverse it somehow. After the Divorce, I spent a few years obsessing about him and what I could have done different, in regret. Then I spent some angry years at the whole situation. At some point, I truly became Indifferent, until now. As I sit here overwhelmed with sadness, reflection and confusion at
what was my biggest failure to date, watching on the news almost play by
play The exact Scenario I saw happen on August 16th, 1977 happening
again right now with Michael (A sight I never wanted to see again) just
as he predicted, I am truly, truly gutted. Any ill experience or words I have felt towards him in the past has just died inside of me along with him. He was an amazing person and I am lucky to have gotten as close to
him as I did and to have had the many experiences and years that we had
together. I desperately hope that he can be relieved from his pain, pressure
and turmoil now. He deserves to be free from all of that and I hope he
is in a better place or will be. I also hope that anyone else who feels they have failed to help him can be set free because he hopefully finally is. The World is in shock but somehow he knew exactly how his fate would be
played out some day more than anyone else knew, and he was right. I
really needed to say this right now, thanks for listening. ~LMP