Henry,
You have every right in the world to feel sad, angry, frustrated... and we understand. You did something very brave leaving your home, pursuing your dream, and in doing just that you have touched so many peoples' hearts... So thank you. Really thank you!
I guess no one knows exactly how you feel, it's not really a common situation, but I hope and pray that you will find comfort in knowing that there are fans who love you.
Henry, fighting!