Sorry for always being so mean But I do hope we could figure out all these things together, find a nice guy and move to a better place I guess it's probably because I want to break my fantasies asap, and at the same time maybe even yours, though I know I already don't have any of them. I hate myself especially when I sound just like YN and I start to agree with some of her ideas in this situation, which is actually far from what I expected last year.