“Sunming. Stop it. I’m on the phone right now. Donghae, you still there”
“Donghae.” I said it again, to confirm it was I speaking but more importantly, to show him I haven’t forgotten anything.
“It’s me, Eunhyuk.”
I could not hear Sungmin laughing anymore; only Eunhyuk’s breathing sound mixed with the sorrowness in the air. He is still good at pretending to be mad, his voice told me everything. The sudden quietness of the background is like a black hole, I am suffocating because it is sucking up all the oxygen in the air. Eunhyuk’s steady breathes could not calm me like it used to be, it’s like a raging fire, at the same time paralyzing, leaving me in a trancelike state of anticipation and regret. I wish he would not speak, because I cannot even make a sound, because my heart has already become shards of glasses. It hit me so hard and sudden, and make all my efforts for so long seem to worthless at that moment. It finally had come to my senses.
He forgot everything.