Someone said ,there are so many beautiful girls in the world ,but there is not even a girl in the world whose smile ,or even the wrinkle of the smile , will resemble yours .
Yet I just want to say ,there might be one thousand girls in the world ,who are suitable to be the one of mine .
However ,there is not even one girl ,who is 1 year and 20 days older than me .
There is not even one girl ,whose eye-lash is 0.08 mm longer than mine .
There is not even one girl ,whose is 1.55 cm higher than me,0.08 kg heavier than me ,150% as knowledgeable as me ,200% as beautiful as me ,300% as talented as me .
I cannot write like Victor Hugo.I cannot write every letter to you daily .
Cos I do not have that sort of knowledge .
Yet I sing for you daily ,with the tune blurred ,with the lyrics unclear .
I just think about you when I sing .
You know what ,you know what is the tenderest part of my heart ?
No ,the tenderest part of my heart is not the valve.
The tenderest one is the cell of the heart where you are .
I just cannot live long enough .
I do not have enough longevity .
I do not have endless breaths or heartbeats .
Yet every breath of mine is taken for you ,every heartbeat of mine is caused by you .
It is funny I guess ,as I know you are condemned to be the girl of someone else's .
Yet I care about you every time .
I just think about you are the angel of the leather and wing .
Every white leather on your body is every boy in the world who loves you.
Yet you know what , did you ever notice there is only one leather on your body ,whose color is grey ?
That leather is me .
I was spoiled by your tears and the color of mine was turned from white to grey .
And I am the one who loves you the most .
I am single all the time .
I might be single for the rest of my life.
Every moment of mine is single ,yet every moment of mine is not alone because of you .
Your voice is just like the finger of God ,lingering around me every day and night .
The sun of ours rose again ,by the name of God .
20140710_wrote in Shenzhen.

因为作者 1周2次 所以挺慢的

Sometimes I don't think you are clever .
You are a little sluggish .
You can watch a movie for 3 hours and you do not know what the movie is about .
Till I grow older and you are the same ,I just like to tell you ,
You know where you were ?
You were in every dumpling that I made .
You were in every toy soldier that I treasured .
You were in every track where I went to school .
You were in every pit where I put our peach tree seed in.
You were in every sweet toothpaste which I use every early morning.
I cannot buy you a diamond ,and I cannot buy you a house ,cos I love everything in the world but money .
I can buy you a meal _how about that ?
Maybe someday when they buy my sentences and we will have money .
Sometimes I just think you can tell me how to love ,and how to be loved .
I just even know not what it really is .
You know who you are ?
You are a sea girl .
You are a girl born by sea .
You are the shell which every species from the sea beloves .
I never went to the seaside before .
I will go to the seaside someday ,and the seaside is where your home is .
Do you know how many shells I need to find and drop ,and then I find you ?
I know you are pretty tall ,and you are taller than I can imagine .
You are taller than every tree that I climbed when I was little .
You are taller than every star in the galaxy that I idolized .
I need to do something .
I need to send you 99 Red Red Roses ,and the 100th one is your pink face .
I need to sing you 99 Sweet Sweet Songs ,and the 100th one is your cute laughter .
I need to give you 99 Great Great Gems , and the 100th one is a pair of your black black eyes .
When I was 16 ,I met you and knew about you .
When I was 20 ,I thought about you .
When I was 25 ,I waited for you .
When I was 30 ,I tried to forget you.
Then you know what happened ?
When I was 35 ,I tried to forget you.
When I was 45 ,I tried to forget you.
When I was 55 ,I tried to forget you.
When I was 60 ,I couldn't forget you and I died .
I tried to forget your sluggish face , slight breath and deep voice .I tried to forget every moment that I idolize you .
And you are the same ,you are as beautiful as before .
You are as famous as among so many handsome boys .
And you do not even know about me .
That is okay .
You need not know about my past .
You need not know about my hobby and my dream .
You even need not know my name .
You just need to know ,there has been a boy in the world who has lingered on every boulevard,and stayed on every corner in the world thinking about you and your voice .
He is just a little short poor virgin boy .
He is the one who loves you .
By the name of God ,
20140702 wrote in Shenzhen .

Darling your days have come to shine .
Every moment of yours comes to shine .
Every dance you learnt comes to shine .Every motion you practiced comes to shine .Your body comes to shine .
Your hair comes to shine .
You are swirling like a swan .
I am sitting in the crowded,clapping for you ,half laughing half crying ,ejoying your performance .
I like the wedding dress you wear .
I like every silk from the wedding dress on your body.
I like everything besides you .
The music stopped .
The bride is standing opposite you .
' I love you ' ,he says deeply as he approaches to your ears .
Do you ever hear ,from the far end of the crowd ,there is another ' I love you ' __from me .
I love violin .
I love the sound of the violin .
That sound is just like your whisper around my ears _I am imagining this .
You know how much I desire to play violin !
I just imagined ,the violin that I am holding is the shoulder of yours .
And its sound is the consistent breath of yours .
As I touch the bow and string , I am touching you ,or even KISSING you .
Though I know not what the kiss really is in the world .
Could you every tell your daughter ?
Not the daughter of ours _the daught of yours ,or the daughter of yours and your husband .
Could you every tell your daughter that ,there was a man in the world who loved you as much as her father did ?
You never belonged to me ,and I never belonged to any girl in the world ,but if possible ,to you .
You refused me.
That is okay as you did .
You refused me ,and you just let a chance slip away .
You just let a chance slip away ,and that chance needed to be mine .
I need that chance to say a thousand sentences about you that stored in my mind .
1000 sentences.
10 words in one sentence.
1 word 1 day .
10000 days .
You refused me.
That is okay as you did
You need to choose a better man and that is the rule of nature .
I am the loser of that competition_ the stonger should survive ,and the weaker should leave .
Losing you is painful to me .
Then what should I do after losing you ?
I will turn to a piece of leaf ,flowing to every place that you went ,and flowing to every place that you are about to go .
As you go and as I follow , no farther ,no closer .
There is only one girl that should be mine in the world , no more , no less .
I will come to you when you are ready , no earlier , no later .
Could you every tell your daughter that ,there was a man in the world who loved you as much as her father did ?
Could you ever show her these words that I am writing ?
No !
This should not be the end !
I cannot stoping writing ,just like I cannot stop loving you .
As I am writing , you are shining in my words _how beautiful you are !
Darling your days have come to shine .
Every moment of yours comes to shine .
Every dance you learnt comes to shine .Every motion you practiced comes to shine .
By the name of God .
20140703 wrote in Shenzhen

It is early morning .
You seems still sleepy in white sheet
Your eyes opened and closed again
There is a white velvet on your eyelash ...
Sorry darling I am sitting on the bed besides you ,but I am too busy .
I am too busy watching the texture of every of your hair string ,so I do not have time to comb your hair and strap your hair with a pink bow .
Sorry darling I am afraid to wake you up as you need 3 more minutes of sleeping .
If you need not ,I just like to massage the scars & bruise of your feet.
I know you practice dancing for all day long .
Sometimes I just do not know what I shall cook for you for breakfast .
It is so hard to meet your appetite as you are a sea girl , while I am the boy from mountain .
I might put some frosted salt onto the white bread .
However , the most important thing is the coffee .
The pure brown coffee powder is just like your brown skin as you stayed on the sunny seaside for too long .
The pure milk powder is like your fair skin when you are in the dancing room ,away from the sunshine .
The sound of dropping the sugar cube into the glass is just like your clear laughter .
As you dance you grow .
You grow taller each day .
And you are mature .
How mature are you , how childish am I .
The best part of our house is the balcony .
When you are watching the galaxy at the balcony ,I will approach you gently .
I will hug you from your back , my head resting on your shoulder slightly .
Your sky is the golden stars .
My sky is you .
I like your scent .
I like the scent of your hair .
The scent of your hair makes every brand of the shampoo so charming !
Thus I like shampoo .
I like toothpaste .
I like toy soldier .
I like all kinds of fruits .
Darling if you don't mind, I will change the brand of the toothpaste for you everyday before you wake up,so you can taste different flavors everyday .
Darling if you don't mind,I will make different muddy toy soldiers for you every day ,but in the end I run out of the shape of the soldier that I can imagine !
Darling if you don't mind , I will sow 10 types of fruit trees in our courtyard _so we can have fresh fruits next fall ?
I am imagining these as I am listening to your songs .
I am imagining these scenario of the days just like I were with you .
If only possible ...
If there is a chance .if only possible ?
No,I am too greedy .
I cannot imagine these !
Look at what I have done !
Dare I ever think about this again ?
It is early morning .
You seems still sleepy in white sheet.
Your eyes opened and closed again.
There is a white velvet on your eyelash ...
By the name of God ,
20140704_wrote in Shenzhen.

The jet is protecting our sky .
Your sky is the golden stars .
My sky is you .
---Preface .
They waged the Third World War .
Girl maybe some day , if only I have the chance to call you darling .
Our team was sent to a big city that had been attacked by the enemy .
I am of the lowest rank of the soldiers .
I do not fight for my country ,and I do not fight for patriotism .
I am fighting for you with my life if you ever believe .
Our team mined every key point of the street so the hostile armor will be sure to die if they ever dare to come .
Every block of the city was bombarded and there was not a complete building in this city .
Here they come !
The enemy sent many troops again and again .
You can encounter the enemy every next moment and you don't know where they will appear .
10 days later after several rounds of fight , the members of my team were consumed gradually and I was the last one who survived .
Girl maybe some day , if only I have the chance to call you darling .
There is a pink hair band in my left chest pocket .
Everything in the city is grey ,except this little cute thing .
You lost it when you were kissing with your boyfriend that day .
I picked it up without your notice .
I am a little strange I guess .
When soldiers die they always hold their metal as they are holding the glory .
When I die I hold your hair band as I am holding you .
I don't love my country .
If it is reasonable , I do love my country ,because there is a little YOU in our country .
I am protecting the city .
This city is the key protective point of our other peaceful cities .
You are in one of the peaceful cities behind .
When I think about this , I am so happy and proud .
My life is for you , and my life makes sense .
I am holding your hair band .
I am holding the days when I love you and you ignore me .
I am holding it when I am seeking the water and ammo .
The enemy dare not send any soldiers to this city anymore , as they suffered several strangely persistent defense here .
The bombers hum .
The fire spits every area of the city .
20 days later , I died .
When the friendly army found me ,your hair band is still in my hand and they couldn't take it out .
As the death came to me more closely , I held it more tightly .
They were very curious ,as I did not die from bleeding , poisoning , virus or hunger .
I died from love sick .
I love love love you , no matter what happens .
I love love love you , as I finally proved it .
Girl maybe some day , if only I have the chance to call you darling ...
By the name of God,
20140707 wrote in Shenzhen.

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If only .
Darling ,please forgive me as I need to use these two words again and again .
If only .
I cannot turn the things between us into reality ,so if only is all I have .
Darling ,if only I were a child again ,I would refuse to be fed with anything but the food from the sea .
I would only be fed with seewead .
Seawead is just like your long black hair , my girl .
Darling , if only I were a child again , I wouldn't have any pork, beef or chicken .
I would only have the icy mineral water from the ancient rocks of the mountain .
I would let myself be pure .
As pure and clear as possible .
Yet no matter how much I keep myself being pure , I cannot be as pure as you ,my watery girl .
Darling , if only I were a child again ,I wouldn't stay up.
I wouldn't play dull games with my silly pals .
I wouldn't waste any minute of my life .
I would read as many books as possible ,and the books wouldn't be concerned with anything but love .
I would learn an exotic language .
I would learn French ,Russian or Japanese .
I am just afraid if I sing too many English/Chinese songs for you , you will get tired .
I would practice piano my girl.
I would practice it day and night ,desperately ,no matter on the sunny or rainy ,no matter at the night with or without moonlight .
Thus when I think about you ,I do not have to write sentences about you by my old broken pen .
I would put all my affections about you onto the ---black and white keys .
And I do all these for you , my girl .
Darling ,if only I were a child again , I wouldn't waste one penny .
I wouldn't speak but one dirty word .
I wouldn't complain anything , curse anyone .
I like to let you know ,
if you hug me someday ,if only it is possible that you will hug me someday ,that the man you are hugging ,used to be an obedient and cute little boy .
Darling ,if only I were a child again , I wouldn't look into the eyes of any girl in the world .
I wouldn't look at any girl , because I know by the day that I was born ,I wouldn't belong to any girl in the wolrd , but you .
If you accept me , I will be yours .
I you decline me , I will be the boy of the God.
I will prove my loyalty , if you ever give me the chance ,never be changed , never be replaced ,never be faded , never be corrupted .
Darling ,if only I were a child again ,I would cherish every moment that I stayed in my warm cradle .
I was thinking about you in my little cradle.
I was thinking about the days of ours that were about to come when I grow up .
Then you know what happened , my beloved girl ?
You became my cradle , and you were hugging me around your warm little breast ...
Darling ,if only I were a child again ...
No , I cannot be a child anymore .
I am more than 20 years old .
I have grown up and everything of mine is ready for you !
I am ready ready for you .
I am waiting waiting for you .
If only you run to me ...
By the name of God,
20140709 wrote in Shenzhen .

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