FUCK.
我怎麼不去死!

太好了这个吧看起来可能还是空的.可能?

谁没有绝望的年纪……
自杀倒是不至于，咬自己那是经常的事。
无处泄火嘛。不想给同学朋友添麻烦，和家长谈兴许只会得到批评与“灵魂洗涤”……
还是自己消化掉好了。
反正已经习惯了。
反正已经习惯了……
反正已经，六年了……

小九是一个很好的人。会安慰人的，比较喜欢重口的，好像是曼胖。是深沉的暗灰蓝色的。
在我心中是好的朋友。

啊喵的围棋很厉害，貌似智商挺高。很高兴她开了这个吧。虽然没有杂色那么多人但是我真的很喜欢这里。
如果我把这里弄得很精彩她会不会感到开心然后和我聊天？
好吧我想多了。
她在我心中和小九一样。
感觉是智慧的浅木色夹着一点有点呆萌的粉色。

妒忌是不好的。
可我就是喜欢妒忌。
我妒忌每一个人。
这可不是一个好习惯。

大门换掉了.我不喜欢他.看起来好没安全感.
好想以前的门,为什么要换掉...:(
我讨厌现在这个大门.
以前陪了我这麼久为什么还是走了.
你好惨..
回来.
我要你一直到死都跟著我.

人是没有确定的颜色的.颜色是会改变.永远都不会知道那个人是什麼颜色.

The Angels are Weeping by Nox Arcana
Meet my obsession, my opium dream.
Lost in indulgence, I'm not what I seem.
Come to my arms and let me seduce you.
Surrender your soul, and I will reduce you
To simple sensation and fleshly delight.
So fly to my side and embrace the night.
We will defy the greatest commands,
And heedlessly walk the forbidden lands.
Gaze into depths of emerald absinthe,
And plunge through the twists of the labyrinth.
Gather at crossroads and chant to the wind,
Dance in the graveyards and revel in sin.
Our innocence lost, and our faith destroyed;
Spiraling down into lightless void.
Drunken on dreams and ceaselessly sleeping,
Here in the garden the angels are weeping.
They will despise us, but we will be strong.
The road to fulfillment is rocky and long.
Misunderstanding is genius' curse.
They call us evil but nothing is worse,
Than passive submission to meaningless rules;
These are oppression and misery's tools.
Ultimate freedom is our delight,
To quaff the nectar of forbidden night.
Gaze into depths of emerald absinthe,
And plunge through the twists of the labyrinth.
Gather at crossroads and chant to the wind,
Dance in the graveyards and revel in sin.
Our innocence lost, and our faith destroyed;
Spiraling down into lightless void.
Drunken on dreams and ceaselessly sleeping,
Here in the garden the angels are weeping.
Blinded by pleasure we long to be free,
Striving towards something we no longer see.
The world is burning, our minds are on fire;
Consumed and consuming in seething desire.
Slaves of sensation; there's something we've lost.
We've ransomed our passion, heedless the cost.
Promethean gods, we have seized the flames,
But our theft is rewarded with eternal chains.
Gaze into depths of emerald absinthe,
And plunge through the twists of the labyrinth.
Gather at crossroads and chant to the wind,
Dance in the graveyards and revel in sin.
Our innocence lost, and our faith destroyed;
Spiraling down into lightless void.
Drunken on dreams and ceaselessly sleeping,
Here in the garden the angels are weeping.
Gaze into depths of emerald absinthe,
And plunge through the twists of the labyrinth.
Gather at crossroads and chant to the wind,
Dance in the graveyards and revel in sin.
Our innocence lost, and our faith destroyed;
Spiraling down into lightless void.
Drunken on dreams and ceaselessly sleeping,
Here in the garden the angels are weeping.
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i love it very much. really.

果然现在只能用画画和音乐来吸引别人的注意了吗..?

又一个人在家了.找个人陪一下也没有.真是的,

我很喜欢傍晚的天空,看起来好漂亮.每天不同时候看都会不同,但都很好看.深沉的深蓝色,清新的浅蓝色,自由的带著一些浅蓝色的有些松开的白色,还有特别橙红色.还有很多我还不知道的.

最近没什麼时间说话,也不想说,反正又不会有什麼改变.连这里也不想开口说话了.
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啊真的没空 只好吧心里的话收起来等有空再说出来了.唔我现在心情还是不错的,不过当时又灰暗起来而已的说.

我想死.
嘛没有人是真正想死的.想死的人其实是想逃避现实或者想得到注意而已.
连自己的长处也是自己缺点,渣死了.
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这是我今天在弹钢琴的时候弹出来的想法.
弹了一小时只能练好3页的歌...我果然老了麼.

好喜欢好喜欢听歌~
最喜欢那些歌词了~
最近啊一直在听几首歌~
超棒的说> <~
Land of broken promises的最喜欢的是这几段
I walked the streets of Vegas
I walked ‘til I was blind
Something was shining on me promises
“Anything you want, anything you desire”
和
Turn the bad blood into good
Bring the laughter, bring the love
Drink again, ‘cause everyone forgets
In the land of broken promises
i can't decide 就是这几句
I can't decide Whether you should live or die
Oh, you'll probably go to heaven Please don't hang your head and cry
No wonder why My heart feels dead inside It's cold and hard and petrified
Lock the doors and close the blinds We're going for a ride
到现在还觉得gril with one eye 很好哎~
唔哈哈哈哈哈哈哈~