Unlike the love between family and the love between couples, we agree what we have is completely different from those kind of classification. Yet, I still felt my heart pounding, hard and fast, when I saw how my words emotionally move you, when I saw you replied my words. I willl never have the courage and the power to bring our relationship to the couple level, and I don't think that will suit us anyway. But in the mean time I still feel that I have the childish part that want to be more intimate, want to touch you, hold your hand. We are both just shy and awkward, that's probably I still feel uneasy to express how important you are to me. Probably, it's just because I'm stupid, I'm embarrased and don't know how to talk, so I have to feel that heart beat. I'll whiper again and again, that I love you like no one else, in a way that no one else will understand. This is special, and this just belong to us. And so it goes, we will continue to be confused and embarrased about this feeling, and continue to be friends. I'll probably marry you when we reach thirty and still single. I'll probably find a girl I'm compatible and you'll find a boy that you dare to ask out, but I think this kind of feeling isn't just for youth, it's closest thing that I think will be able to withstand time and challenge. I'll wait for you in college, and maybe someday, we will move out together and rent a place together, like how we discussed before. Happy birthday, my dearest and one friend that I will never stop question whetever I love you as a friend or as a person. You and I are just so confusing.