wow, what a ****in' thing i have heard！they betrayed you but still beg for your forgiveness,if i am right? just give them a slap on their faces and then live a brand-new life for yourself.

oh shit! there is no need to continue the privous rilationship any more, because they made such a ditermined decision! get out of the mess!

It is so dramatic, isn't it huh?
My friends heard this all agreed that i should hate them and never talk with them again. But, am i crazy? i don't want to lose the friendship, either the boy or the girl. these days, they told me again and again that "WE" still best friends and they treasure our friendship. In fact, i don't want to believe in them anymore, but, i can't. OH....i don't know what i am doing.....

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rationally, i should go far away from them, never talk with them again and just meetother friends and start my new life, right? But i CAN'T. How silly and stupid and naive i am. They are so important to me because i had treated them as my dearest friends...


Don't bother yourself to hate them, but you need to know whether they are your friend any longer

Am i still treat them as friends? i don't know... i just not want to lose them. actually, i don't know what i am wishing for. i don't know why i am still staying beside them and refuse to go away. am i still loving the guy? i don't know... My brain keeps on running and i am experiencing extreme emotions. It is so horrible!!!


我能力有限。要中文了。妞，曾有个女生让我抢后排男生的书。后来她当好人还了回去。或许你的朋友不是这种心态，但是关系闹僵了与她是没多大关系的。你不用再对他们有多好，我认为假惺惺是人的本能。如果你现调节不过来，你就让他们让你先静一静，然后你以后就对他们很礼貌就是了

i try my best to reply you in english.
in fact, i agree that i am pretending something and refuse to show the real me to them and to everyone. i am afraid as i don't know what will happen if our relationship goes worse. we are classmates and we still need to be classmates for one more year. what can i do? or how i can have a happy school life next year? i don't think having2 enemies is a good way... but keeping the friendship seems unfair to me.

最后一年为了成绩而无暇顾及其他无可厚非。如果想去的就答应。不想的就用学习当盾

it's really a good excuse!!
it is glad to have a chat with you tonight as you gave me so much great opinions and reflections!!!!
haha, but in fact, i might finally not follow any of them... as i prefer to choose to be a "good girl" that would forgive everything and accept everything or even wish them have a good future... i am good at pretending, huh? i hate to do so!!!!!!

It's your own life.

i want to cry....
you know what i am actually thinking of and you realise the real me...
you are not neglecting everything, instead, you understand everything.

Thinking too late make no sense. Go to sleep.