My darling wife :
Not a day goes by when i don't think about you and our beautiful baby boy, It is now many weeks since we parted. Precisely how long, I don't know, time, once so predictable and reliable, has slipped away from me, i know how callous my abrupt departure in the dead of night must have appeared, and for that i am truly sorry, but i hope you will find it in your heart one day to forgive me,
for it was not a choice to leave, but rather an obligation. My grandfather came to this country with a dream : a dream that was passed down to me, that is in my blood, in my very soul, i always believed it was my duty to realize that dream, to complete a journey that started in odessa, by the black sea, three generations ago, but i have lost sight of what it is, if i ever knew at all, i am headed west towards the ocean, but i'm not sure why any more, day after day, the sun beats down on
me in this godforsaken desert, relentless and mocking, every step i take forward, i seem to get further away, i thought this was my destiny, and perhaps it is, maybe we are condemned to walk in circles, chasing the skyline, maybe it is all a lie, oh this is a terrible land of broken promises.
I had everything, and gave it upin the pursuit of nothing, i fear i have made a terrible mistake, but there is no way back now.
forever yours,
sam
亲爱的妻子：
我没有一天不想念你和我漂亮的宝贝儿子。我们自分开到现在已经有几周了吧，具体多长，我无法计算。曾经我以为可预见、可信赖的时光，现在也已经悄悄离我而去。我知道我深夜的突然离去有多么的冷酷无情，对此我感到非常抱歉，但是我希望有一天你可以从内心原谅我。我的离去没有办法选择，这是一个任务，是一份责任。我的祖父当初怀着梦想来到这个国度。现在这个梦想将由我去完成，它已经融入了我的血液，我的灵魂，我一直坚信完成这个梦想是我的职责。为了完成这段旅程，最初从奥德萨市开始，穿过黑海，这已经历了三代人。但是到我这里可能不能再继续下去了。如果当初我能明白祖父为什么要做一切，也许我会继续往大海西边走下去。可现在我也不知道为什么要这么做。日复一日，在这荒凉的沙漠中，太阳灼烤着我，无情地嘲笑着我，我向前走的每一步都仿佛越来越远，我想，这就是我的宿命。现在看来，也许的确是这样。可能我们这一生所付出的，都注定只是在原地徘徊、追逐一些虚无飘渺的东西。也许这全都是假的！喔！这个背弃诺言的可怕之地。
我很害怕。因为我犯了一个很严重的错误：我放弃了曾经拥有过的一切。但是现在已经回不去了。
永远爱你的 山姆
Not a day goes by when i don't think about you and our beautiful baby boy, It is now many weeks since we parted. Precisely how long, I don't know, time, once so predictable and reliable, has slipped away from me, i know how callous my abrupt departure in the dead of night must have appeared, and for that i am truly sorry, but i hope you will find it in your heart one day to forgive me,
for it was not a choice to leave, but rather an obligation. My grandfather came to this country with a dream : a dream that was passed down to me, that is in my blood, in my very soul, i always believed it was my duty to realize that dream, to complete a journey that started in odessa, by the black sea, three generations ago, but i have lost sight of what it is, if i ever knew at all, i am headed west towards the ocean, but i'm not sure why any more, day after day, the sun beats down on
me in this godforsaken desert, relentless and mocking, every step i take forward, i seem to get further away, i thought this was my destiny, and perhaps it is, maybe we are condemned to walk in circles, chasing the skyline, maybe it is all a lie, oh this is a terrible land of broken promises.
I had everything, and gave it upin the pursuit of nothing, i fear i have made a terrible mistake, but there is no way back now.
forever yours,
sam
亲爱的妻子：
我没有一天不想念你和我漂亮的宝贝儿子。我们自分开到现在已经有几周了吧，具体多长，我无法计算。曾经我以为可预见、可信赖的时光，现在也已经悄悄离我而去。我知道我深夜的突然离去有多么的冷酷无情，对此我感到非常抱歉，但是我希望有一天你可以从内心原谅我。我的离去没有办法选择，这是一个任务，是一份责任。我的祖父当初怀着梦想来到这个国度。现在这个梦想将由我去完成，它已经融入了我的血液，我的灵魂，我一直坚信完成这个梦想是我的职责。为了完成这段旅程，最初从奥德萨市开始，穿过黑海，这已经历了三代人。但是到我这里可能不能再继续下去了。如果当初我能明白祖父为什么要做一切，也许我会继续往大海西边走下去。可现在我也不知道为什么要这么做。日复一日，在这荒凉的沙漠中，太阳灼烤着我，无情地嘲笑着我，我向前走的每一步都仿佛越来越远，我想，这就是我的宿命。现在看来，也许的确是这样。可能我们这一生所付出的，都注定只是在原地徘徊、追逐一些虚无飘渺的东西。也许这全都是假的！喔！这个背弃诺言的可怕之地。
我很害怕。因为我犯了一个很严重的错误：我放弃了曾经拥有过的一切。但是现在已经回不去了。
永远爱你的 山姆
