Dear LaiLai,
Maybe you will never know how much courage I have summoned up to write this letter to you, my dearest honey. I just want to send you this letter, though you are not likely to receive it without the biggest surprise. I am afraid that you would leave me decidedly after you know my deeply concealed secret, but these days I have been disturbed by a wicked idea that may sound weird to you, is actually my real voice. My dearest honey, the very first moment I saw you, I was mesmerized by your handsome face, perfect stature and even your fresh breath. Your glossy eyes are sparkling with exotic lure, irresistible, and overwhelming! I can't withdraw my eyes from you for just one second. Your presence is so sweet that I fall in love with your prince-like manner all at once. I invited you to dine with me, as I needed a chance to get closer to you to test whether your are suitable for me. How exhilarated I was when you gave me the consent. We were talking, laughing, singing and wolfing down our buffet. That is the most fantastic night I have spent in my entire life at college.
In terms of personality, we are a perfect match; when it comes to sexual orientation, we belong to stark, opposite side. Girls are your dreamboat, but I am only into boys. In a heterosexual man's eye, the homosexual are eccentric, aren't they? Some liberal men can tolerate this disparity, and I believe you are one of them, for you come from ChengDu, which is famous for its gay culture. I am not promulgating that homosexuality is as acceptable as heterosexuality from a straight man's point of view. All I hope is that you can be generous enough to allow a man to admire you, my distinguished prince. I do know that I will never be the one, as you describe in one of your blogs, whom you are willing to do everything possible for. When I read that blog, my eyes were wet. You are responsible, a reliable man deserving a demure, well-cultured lady to show the purest affection for. I pray for you to find a lady with whom you can establish abiding relationship. Till then, I will still stand beside you and back you up with all my strength. Whenever you come across any hardship, I am more than ready to ferry you out of the quandary, whether it be excruciating or embarrassing. There is a magic chemistry between you and me. Despite the fact that I can never be your beloved sweetheart, my profound love for you won't diminish to the least degree. You will stay in my heart with every sunrise and every sunset.
Deep within me, I am much too informed that your kindness to me is out of your affable disposition, not because you have the same strong emotion for me as I do for you, my dearest honey. The little demon haunting in your mind may be challenging the authenticity of my ever-growing love for you. His testimony is that we haven't been more than an acquaintance for no more than 2 months, how possibly can it be that it is impossible for me to live without you. I don't feel like lying. I had been through my life pretty well before I knew you. But the moment you came into my life, it was completely changed. Whatever you said to me is reverberating in the wild valley of my heart, there being always a familiar, sensuous, sonorous voice around me. When I close my eyes, your image pops up, bringing me infinite ecstasy. When I soar in my dreamland, where you are there with no exception, both of us play around, confiding each other how inseparable our relationship is and how important we are in the eyes of either of us. It sounds sweet and an act of mutuality. It, nevertheless, only happens in my pigment of imagination.
Some friends ever suggested my trying to make you a gay. But I have the most resentful opposition to it. That I love you isn't saying that I will be your partner or you will be forever with me. That kind of love is too selfish. That I love you means I am trying my best to offer the best to the best you in my heart. I will never eat my oath. From the very minute I am under the spell of your charm, your goals are also what I will be fighting for. I will do whatever I am able to reach to help you realize whatever you are dreaming of. I will be your most loyal assistant and supporter. You are my sunshine, without which my metabolism will stop.
You will never read this letter, my dearest honey, though there is an almost irresistible tendency dictating me to let you know my silly love. For the sake of our ever-green friendship, this letter shall be submerged in the bottomless sea, far down in the cranny of the rock lying there silent and dormant without being touched by your tenderest care and alertest attention. That you don't know that a very close friend of you is observing you watchfully cannot deny the fact that all my senses are taken away by your magnificence. You are the star, and I will be your moon.
Your true admirer,
Kalvin