I swear i think about this question more than once, How did i get here? How on the earth did i find here?...
    i couldn't find the answer, the truth is i don't know how did i. the only thing i remember is i'm here, the family, i'm in it.everybody was(and will be)connect together, no one was seperate. i was with you, went throught a lot of things, and when i was still far away from you, when last year's celebration came into my mind, i felt warm, an' when i thought about this year, i could be in there, too--althought i was away from you for a long time--i don't know what's going on there i don't know who made a special post, or even who became the new member or new "manager", but it doesn't matter, the thing is, even though i am left behind, i know you won't adonbe me, we are still together, as far as my soul's wtill there.
and as i'm thinking about the new celebration, i couldn't help but my whole body, every bone in it started shaking; an' as i was watching the vidoe we made last year, i felt the heart has been warmened and my tear came in a rush. i know i couldn't take it without you, and finally, here i am, i knew i was crazy when th efirst time i realize i could join your events, i could get in the writing competition, the celebration, the whole process making, i feel good, and i was crazy.
   i know that i want my prices, but i told myself, that's ok if i don't get it, the only thing i want is memorize, so when i grow up, when we are really seperate, i have something to reminds how we were gathered and how nice the family is, but the memorize i have in my mind id better than everything, and as we still stay together, nothing would change, no matter we ARE still together or not.
    I love you, my dear little family!


eh...抱歉，因为我的拼音现在很差，所以打字会很慢，这样还没打完，激情就没了，所以才用英文，可以打得很快，想到哪儿写到哪儿。。抱歉惹麻烦了……
等会儿我在翻译一下（并且还拼错了单词…………我的习惯……）

【我发誓我不止一次的想过这个问题：我是怎么来这儿的。到底在这个世界上是什么原因让我找到这儿的？
    我找不到答案，我唯一记得的事情就是我在这儿，这个家庭，我在里面。所有人（过去和现在）都连在一起，没有人被分离。我以前和你们一起，经历了很多事。当我和你们分离的时候，当去年庆祝的场面浮现在我的脑海里的时候，我觉得温暖。并且当我想起今年我还可以和你们在一起庆祝--即使我离开你们很久--不知道发生了什么，不知道谁发了特别的帖子，甚至不知道来了哪个新人或新的管理员，但是没有关系。重要的是，即使我被落在后面，我知道你们不会抛弃我，我们还在一起，只要我的灵魂还在。
    当我想那些庆祝的时候，我的整个身体（里面的每一根骨头）都情不自禁的颤抖。当我看去年我们做的视频的时候，我感觉我的心被温暖了，我的眼泪象是要冲出来一样。我知道我离不开你们。最终，Here I am, 我知道当我第一次意识到我可以参加你们的活动的时候，我疯狂了。我可以参加写文比赛、庆祝、和整个制作过程。我很高兴，并且真的疯狂了。
    我知道我想要奖品，但是我告诉自己，就算没有拿到也没有关系，因为我真正想要的是一份记忆，这样当我们真正分开的时候，有一些事会提醒我我们怎么聚集到一起，这个家庭有多好。但是最重要的以及其实在我心里。我们还在一起，不管我们真的分开了没有。
    我爱你，我亲爱的小家庭！

扑上亲亲～

同亲～马上就好了～

aw～～

好吧不知什么原因，后半部分老被删掉……上午还被封ip了，气死我了！
给个网址吧
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